i wish this could be a break-up letter. knowing the impossibility of that brings me heartbreak and rage. even still, you need to know that i do not want this relationship. i do not consent. in fact, i will do everything i can to free myself from it–from you– despite the fact that i cannotContinue reading “dear whiteness”
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dear greta
dear greta, thank you. your voice, shaking in power and rage and grief, is a wake up call. your actions are a wake up call. you are a wake up call. your example of sane leadership in a time of madness satisfies a hunger for truth that many of us have not been aware we’veContinue reading “dear greta”
flow
we sow seeds to our becoming with such deep knowing that our minds cannot compute. we play a part in a much bigger play, a piece in a grander masterpiece that is unknowable. trusting that deep knowing, residing in our essence is life-giving and we flow…
arrogance
i grew up fearing taking up too much space. doing so was despicable. unacceptable. this was for many reasons given the circumstances of my growing up. least of which was that i was a white girl from the south. i grew up shrinking. as i grew, i was trained on all the ways in whichContinue reading “arrogance”
i want
i want to whisper to those around me let’s be quiet and still for just a little while i want to hear ourselves and our world it’s too beautiful to miss i want to be here with all of it
the blues
what does it mean to practice egolessness? to get out of our own way so that we can be in right relationship with those around us? to open ourselves to the world and be liberated from harmful patterns that shut us down and divide us? one of my teachers, jerry granelli recently drew on hisContinue reading “the blues”
numbing
my heart breaks at our inability to be with suffering. my mind, body, and spirit hurt at our numbing–in all the ways we distance ourselves from the pain we experience personally and collectively. this weekend, i was in a workshop on dismantling racism. an elderly african- american man stood to share work he had doneContinue reading “numbing”
change
Everything has a beginning, middle, end. For some time, this teachingSeduced me in trying to diagnose Which phase I was experiencing–As I questioned the life of a relationship, Whether my mother was dying,Whether I was menopausal…I now can see that there’s no way of knowing. The peace comes in simply understandingEverything has a beginning, middle, end.
whiteness
One thing I’m noticing is the suffering of White folks. This statement makes me uncomfortable to say as a White woman. I’ve been trained and conditioned to not attend to White suffering and to direct my noticing to the suffering of those more directly oppressed by racial injustice and White Supremacy. I’ve diminished the sufferingContinue reading “whiteness”
spiraling
i’ve long loved spirals. they represent to me an ongoing process of growth that returns, again and again to its origins. lately, i see myself spiraling. not in an out-of-control way (although sometimes it does feel like that!) but in the sense of circling back to a core place, with the same core questions andContinue reading “spiraling”